During initiation, I did not know that the visions I saw were inner experiences. While meditating on the inner light, I saw the Earth - a beautiful globe, in white and blue, very similar to the pictures taken by astronauts from outer space. I also saw a stone statue of the Buddha, in the sound meditation position, flying from my left to my right. At the time, I thought those were illusions. Later, when I received the spiritual diary and saw a Buddha's statue sitting with one folded leg, I thought to myself: "Isn't this what I just saw?"

Soon after initiation, I saw a book on Buddhism for children at a friend's home. In it was an illustration of the Shakyamuni Buddha sitting in meditation. Above His head was a beautiful globe symbolizing His great awakening. That globe was exactly like the one I saw during initiation! Then I realized that the visions that I had during initiation were inner experiences! However, at the end of the initiation, when the Quan Yin messenger asked those who had had inner experiences to raise their hands, I thought I had merely seen an illusion and so I did not raise my hand.

Now I realize that I did have an enlightenment experience at the time of initiation. I had thought that the stars in my visions would be like those normally seen in this world. And that was why I mistook the big star (the globe) for an illusion.