One
year, during the harvest season, I went into the mountains with
my father to pick tealeaves. When lunch time came, the female tea-pickers
thought that I had not prepared lunch for myself, so a vegetarian
among them invited me to share her lunch. Actually, I had brought
a lunchbox. My father was on the side, listening. Knowing that the
lady was not a pure vegetarian, he answered before I could reply,
with a trace of pride on his face, "Please don't bother! She
is a pure vegetarian!"
I
could not help laughing. I could still remember the earlier years
when I stirred up a family revolution because I wanted to pursue
spiritual practice and become a vegetarian. My parents' attitude
has changed drastically since. Though they are still not serious
about doing spiritual practice themselves and even pass a sarcastic
remark now and then, I can feel their love for me in this regard.
It is because I have not been tactful that misunderstandings have
arisen among them. One must reflect on one's own actions in order
to understand this.
Occasionally,
during the Chinese New Year or other festivals, I go home to visit
my parents. Worried that I may not be having enough to eat or not
getting enough nutrition, they often suggest ordering a full course
of pure vegetarian dishes for the whole family. When I lovingly
prepare some simple but nutritious vegetarian dishes for them, they
really enjoy it and would even advise me not to eat processed foods.
Mother is really cute. I never force her to eat vegetarian food
with me, but she always eats vegetarian during my short stay at
home. She even mischievously blames me for letting the non-vegetarian
food she receives from others decay, because she cannot eat it when
I am home.
I
often tell mother interesting and heart-warming stories about the
monastic order, and how we work to beautify the Center. As time
has gone by, I have noticed that mother has changed slowly; she
has become more interested in the enjoyable and aesthetic aspects
of life. She has begun to plant flowers and herbs outside the house
to create an atmosphere of welcome. She also grows big and attractive
fruit which she presents to others to reciprocate for the gifts
she has received from them. Sometimes, she pretends to be naive
and nag me, "You ought to change!" And I would respond,
"Yes! One has to change. So please switch to a vegetarian diet
like I have!" Then she laughs like an innocent child.
The
selfless sacrifice of our parents for us has constantly brought
this question to mind: Can I make the same selfless sacrifice on
the path of spiritual practice? I can not repay my parents with
worldly position, reputation, wealth or tangible materials. Nevertheless,
I have told myself deep within to be sincere in spiritual practice,
and to use this precious human body to serve the multitude, so as
to repay my parents for the sacrifices they have made in a meaningful
way.