Supreme Master Ching Hai,
Youngdong Center, Korea May 12, 1998
Originally in English
You go home and tell everyone not to sit there and pray for Master to come to your place or your country. That can be terrible for me all the time. Just let it be natural. You can come to see me. It's good. Don't always say every time I pass by, "Oh, Master, come to Au Lac! Master, come to China! Master, come to Hong Kong! Master, come to Thailand. Master, ..." And in Thailand, there are different provinces! Then, even if I come to Thailand, they say, "Master, come to Chiangmai! Master, go to Bangkok! Master, go... go, somewhere, etc. They are just demanding the impossible! They just talk; they don't even care how I feel, and how I can make it or not make it. All of this is pulling me apart. Just demanding, demanding and demanding! And I'm really so tired. Sometimes, there are just two or three disciples somewhere, and they don't even come to see me, but just sit there and demand miracles. "Master, if You come here, then I will know You are the real Buddha! (Laughter) Yeah! Then, "I'd never, never, ever follow anyone else, I swear!" Just like that. It's just illusion.
We have a lot of things in this world to do than just see each other. If you want to see me, then come where I'm available. Don't just sit there, demanding me to prove that I'm a Buddha. I've proven enough already! (Master laughs) And if I'm not the Buddha, then don't bother to follow me. No one forces anyone. There's no need for me to go there to prove I am a Buddha or to give you initiation at the exact time, exact place and exact day so that you will know I'm a proven Buddha. It is not possible all the time. There's no need for that kind of outer proof. You know who the Buddha is, don't you? Who? (Audience answers: You!) No! You. Right! (Master and all laugh) You! You! You are the Buddha, and if you don't know that, I cannot prove it to you. I cannot prove it to you; I cannot prove that you are the Buddha. If, after all my effort, you still don't know, then goodbye. Go where you want.
This is ridiculous sometimes, you make me so much trouble. I just go somewhere, and without even having time to develop or to help that place, then someone tries to pull me some other way, because here looks so good. "Master puts all Her efforts here; they have so much fun here. Why don't we have it in our place?" Things like that. And then I have to make so much effort, just to buy another place somewhere else and try to make it exactly the same, just for the outer satisfaction of your mind. Otherwise I live in hell! (Master laughs) I'm sitting somewhere and can't even have peace in my life or accomplish anything.
Sometimes you do things without thinking. Please think before you speak, before you demand, and before you think of what you want from me. It's better to think of what you want from yourself, what you can do for yourself, and not what I can do for you. It doesn't matter how much I can do for you, it's never enough. It's you who have to do it, because you live with yourself every day. You know what you want every day. And whatever you want, it's more in your reach to do it, because you are in control of your destiny and your life, and no one else. Even the Buddha or Christ cannot control it for you.
So go home, and bring this message to your people. Tell them "Leave me alone!" I come when I'm ready, when it is God's will. Don't pull me apart; don't tear me into pieces! I can't do it. I can't live like that, and serve you at the same time. We have only 24 hours a day, I told you, and there are only so many things I can accomplish physically, physically speaking. I'm already a very fast worker. I do three, four, sometimes ten jobs at the same time. I work for hundreds of people. I mean, (Master laughs) the effort of one person is sometimes equal to ten or 100 people already. I still can never be fast enough. Also the machine sometimes runs out of juice, out of petrol, out of... I don't know what -- just runs out.
See, last night, I just had some fun with you, and today, no more voice. Just a little thing like that! Just have some fun. We could have more fun. Why does the voice run out? What for? (Master laughs) And then, so much dust we made (Master laughs) causes coughing, running nose, itchy eyes, scratchy throat, things like that. "What for?" I asked my body. "What for do you do all these things to me?" "What's the use for yourself or for anyone?" No! No use, but the body still does it. Still reacts the way it is chemically arranged. So, there is nothing much I can do for you more than I'm already doing. Tell the disciples, your people, your friends, your wife, your kids, whatever, "Please go on with your life. Meditate. Find your own Buddha." If we have the time to see each other, we have the opportunity if it is God's blessing, then we will see each other, ok? If not, just do what you have to do, and I will do what I have to do. Don't try to tear each other apart, just for nothing, really. It's not necessary that you have to see me. It is, but if you can see me once in a while, ok. If cannot, too bad! You should be happy that I'm alive already, that you still have hope, that I don't die so soon! Suppose I die, then what? You don't even have hope to see me. So just hope, but don't demand. Hope, and it is different. I come in my own time, when it is God's will.
Can you imagine, with all the people in every different direction, always praying the same thing, how I feel? Even if I want to, can I even do that? I have the manifestation buddy, b-u-d-d-y. (Master laughs) Manifestation "buddy" which runs the errands for me all over the world. But you don't want to see him. My "buddy" is better than me, more efficient! He can run a million jobs at the same time, go in different places at the same time. Why don't you talk to him, do business with him? I can just be at one place at one time with this physical body, and do one of a few hundred things at one time; cannot do more than that.
I can't even have a home because of all of your demanding in different directions. I can't even have a home. If I have a home, it would be better for you, even. You can always come to see me when I'm there. (Applause) But I can't have a home if everyone wants me in their private home, or even in their hometown, at the same time, or different times.
As soon as I build something up so that everyone can come to see me and stay there as long as they want and see me until their hearts are content, then, someone wants to pull me somewhere else, "It's better in our hometown! You make an ashram over there exactly like this, in our hometown, yeah?" This is a selfish demand, you understand?
That's why always I just build something up, and then it's ruined -- destroyed, damaged, or taken away from us, because your power of thinking is very strong. But it's not good for everyone, including myself, to run around all the time. I cannot see everyone at the same time. If I have a place and I can stay there safely, I can do my office work for you and reply to your letters on time, and then you can also come to me at your own time when your situation allows, or when you want to. I'm always there. Isn't that better? Yes! (Applause) I always beg you not to demand ridiculous things and impossible things. But as human nature, I just tell you this, and I turn around and there's another person, saying, "Master, come to Au Lac. We will buy land over there!" and things like that. It looks like they don't understand what I'm talking about. Have to repeat it, repeat it, but there's always some new persons come, and then you have to repeat it again and again. So, please help me! You do the job! You tell everyone just to shut up inside, okay? And just do God's will. Whatever God wants, it will be done. Don't always try to run the universe. Don't run my life, run my job for me, by demanding ridiculous things all the time. Even if I want to, can I do that? Can I run around all the time and see everyone as they demand? Cannot! This is a modern time, so we'd better use our modern advantage. We can have airplanes, we can have all kinds of equipment, video, and all that. We can be satisfied meanwhile.
It's better that I have a home, and then I can go sometimes here and there on a fixed schedule. And everyone knows this time Master is not home, okay, we don't go there to see Her. We go to see Her somewhere else if we want to, but at least there is a place so people can come and stay and wait for me, you know. See me whenever they want to see me. It's convenient for you. It's better that I stay still and then all of you can come. If I run around, it's very difficult to catch me. Right? (Yes!) If I go to Korea, it doesn't coincide with your schedule, your financial situation, or your liking. You might not like to go to Korea at this time, things like that. Or your work doesn't permit you to come at this time, so you come another time. If I'm somewhere fixed or something like that, it would be better.
And of course, I would go out now and again to talk to the world if necessary, if it is God's will. But it would be better if I stay still. That's what I think. But I cannot do it if everyone keeps tearing me in different directions, pulling in different directions. It's very tiring to withstand all this power also, very tiring for me. Just as if I want to stand here still, and everyone is pulling me in different directions, you know what I mean? And I have to always toss and turn around. Can you imagine that? So help me to get the message to the people! (Applause)