Between Master & Disciple

"Am I still Your good disciple?" I asked the inner Master silently when I flew to Thailand to attend the international retreat. I never expected that You would give a lecture that exactly addressed my inner turbulence. I had a delightful time at the retreat while being filled with true love from Heaven.

By Fellow Initiate Georgia Yen, South Africa
3-day Retreat, Bangkok, Thailand October, 1997

Even You, Master, who are always courageous, commented on how brave You were to have made the trip. The strong invisible karma tried to "bind" You, to hinder You; the intense longings of the disciples to see You could have swallowed You. But, despite all these difficulties, You came.

In groups You met with disciples from all parts of the world. When You were lecturing in the Forest Hall to the Korean group, You said, "I am not talking to You but someone outside." At that time, I was sitting quietly in the Meditation Hall with a turbulent mind watching You talk on the TV screen, when I discovered that You were telling my story. I realized immediately that You were talking to me because You analyzed my tangled mind and thoughts in such a systematic and reasonable way. Though I never uttered one word to You, You knew everything. You spoke slowly and softly. You were very gentle and forgiving. Your wisdom and rationale came from the boundless ocean of love within. I was deeply moved.

You and I conversed like that beyond space and time, and I melted in the warmth of Your love. I realized that You are truly within me all the time, watching me. You have never left me alone at any moment. You are all-knowing, but in order to give Your mortal child the message, You had to travel with Your physical body and suffer all kinds of obstacles to bring the answer to me.

To pursue and possess worldly love I gave up everything until I lost myself. When I see vanity in my goals, I realize that the love in this world is nothing but an illusion. I turn around to discover true heavenly love beside me all the time. I feel content now; never do I need to search again.