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By Sister Initiate Huong Feng-Lan, Tainan, Formosa

Master has mentioned Her sweet past with Her husband before She became a renunciate. Though She speaks about this in a relaxed and cheerful manner, as if She is sharing a dear memory with us, I always feel very sad. Master has mentioned how She discussed with Her husband beforehand Her desire to leave home, and how Her husband suffered and cried; but She never speaks about Her own feelings. She only tells us: Now that we can practice the Quan Yin Method at home, there is no need for us to imitate Her action of leaving Her beloved husband and forsaking the world to seek the method of liberation.

Master's narration might sound cheerful, but being a woman myself, I can hardly withstand my heartfelt sorrow each time I hear Her speak about this. My only consolation is believing that, Master is so great precisely because She can endure what ordinary people cannot.

Recently, in the Supreme Master Ching Hai News (No.78), I read an article entitled "Love and Spiritual Poetry" written by the poet Mr. Thu Phong. In this article, he commented on two of Master's poems written before She left home. Here is the excerpt of them:

An Unexpected Day
(Traces of Previous Life II)

...We soared together the everlasting land.
A thousand words halted between our lips.
In loving embrace our passion radiated,
Warm scented breath wafted over the entire existence...

Acceptance
(Traces of Previous Life II)

...I remain here with you
Because the wind is cold outside,
And where else could I go.
Life's a long lonely road, besides.

It's just the human's lot.
Like birds who must live in pairs,
Like animals who must have their lairs,
I too need a mate...

Reading these two poems, the long untouched wound in my heart bled again, and I couldn't help crying! How could one remain unmoved by such an anguished separation?

I picked up the Vo Tu Poems and read them again. It was not difficult to detect the sadness of leaving and the pain of lingering hidden within the verses. It reminded me of Master's visit to Munich, Germany, one of the many stops on Her worldwide lecture tour in 1993. Master lived there for a couple of years with Her husband before She left. A fellow practitioner who provided the accommodation for the working team told us that Master was an old acquaintance of their family, and that his uncle was a close friend of Master's family. When Master was about to leave home, She and Her husband had a talk at his uncle's home, and Master's husband was so sad that he cried many times.

From this poem, we can observe more of the dear love between the intimate couple:

 
I love you
(Wu Tzu Poems)
 
...I love you as I love myself,
Like I love the mountains, rivers and continents.
Tomorrow, when we part, who will shed tears?
To repay your love, I bow to you.

God knows when we will meet again,
Perhaps when our hair grows white, our love grows old.

Wish me high, to heaven I soar!
Wish me the whole Earth, I level!

For the ideal of seeking the Truth, a couple very much in love, parted. This pain is really intolerable! Like you and me, Master has also experienced the emotions of love, and silently endured the agony and struggle in Her heart. Her purpose is to protect Her disciples from tasting the same bitterness and from going through Her painful experience.

Now we can maintain our marriage and take care of our families, while practicing spiritually to attain liberation. How grateful we are to Master for revealing Her poems to us, so we can have a better idea about the inner thinking of an enlightened Master in seeking the Truth. Naturally, we will cherish more of what we have now.