I was a very inconsiderate girlfriend, yet I didn't realize it. I just took it for granted that my boyfriend should help me, serve me, and love me anytime and anywhere; that he should not be tired after work, but only be around me. After all, I thought that I was quite loving, tender and caring towards him.

After the initiation I went to help at our local Center a lot. At that time, my boyfriend felt that he was being ignored by me and suggested that we separate. I agreed immediately without thinking, since I knew that Master would take care of everything for me. Since then he has been strongly against Master, spiritual practice and meditation. I felt sorry for him, but I was satisfied with Master's love and I did not care about how others felt.

Then one time I saw on a videotape Master said: "After initiation you should love your family members even more." Since then I began to reflect upon myself and I soon understood why my boyfriend was against Master. Of course he would be against Master, since he saw how I had behaved and changed, which was not good at all. I realized that I hadn't understood Master's teachings at all. I just wanted to satisfy myself without any consideration for others.

After many days and weeks I learned to admit my mistakes and acknowledge my egotistical ideas, which I've always denied. I began to humbly learn from others, even my boyfriend. I discovered that he has many good points which I don't have -- perseverance, patience, power of concentration. He is sometimes very concentrated when he wants to finish a certain task. In comparison, my thoughts are quite scattered, except in my meditation and spiritual practice, which I think I manage okay.

From then on, I dared not look down upon any so-called non-initiates. I shall learn from Master the universal and unconditional love and give the world more understanding, supportive energy and encouragement. This is the only way we can help people. I don't expect anything from my relationship with my boyfriend because I know God takes care of everything. Whatever will be, will be. At least he is not so negative towards meditation and Master now. Presently, we are living in a much more harmonious and loving atmosphere.

Our practice is not to change everything into a topsy-turvy state, but to better things. Only when we give those nearest to us a good example can we show them the advantages of spiritual practice.