Hello
Venerable Master, My Dearest Mother:
I am a native of Harbin in the Mainland Chinese Province
of Heilungkiang. After my marriage, I suffered both physically
andmentally when my husband had extramarital affairs, again
and again. For the sake of our two daughters, I waited for
him to come backto me. Twenty years passed but he showed
no signs of change or regret; therefore, divorce could not
be averted.
Conceding
that life had not been kind to me, I began to worship the
Buddha in 1985, hoping to be a good person and be rewarded
in the next life. My sincerity worked. Life was tough but
things went smoothly.
In
the winter of 1989, for some unknown reason, I suddenly
couldn'teat meat so I switched to a vegetarian diet. Everyday
I worshippedthe Buddha and chanted His name hoping to attain
liberation. Isaved my money for pilgrimages and charity.
Towards
the end of the summer 1995, a nun from a temple in Qianshan
visited my home. She told me that she had seen Supreme Master Ching Hai inher dream. After she returned to her temple, she sent
me twocopies of The Supreme Master Ching Hai News magazine and two audiotapes
of Your lectures. My family all agreed with the logic and
reasoning behind Your teachings. It helped me put down my
incidental magical powers, and my younger daughter also
became a vegetarian.
A
month later, we met a Quan Yin practitioner. We borrowed
some books and videotapes. Only then did we come to understand
the meaning of enlightenment, liberation and Buddhahood.
Only then did we realize that Supreme Master Ching Hai is a living
Buddha. True Masters are hard to find. The dharma is not
easily acquired. I was overjoyed that I had the fortune
and affinity in this lifetime to know of You and the Quan
Yin Method. I have no idea what merits I have earned in
my past lives to deserve this. From that time on, my daughter
and I developed unwavering faith in the Quan Yin Method
and are now awaiting initiation.
The
wait for initiation has been full of frustrations and setbacks.
I have often cried thinking of Master and yearn to be initiated.
One night, I saw Master on a stage. As I cried in penitence,
You raised Your right hand and said: "Get up! Master knows
it all! "Right after that, the oral ulcer that had troubled
me for fifteen years was cured. Ironically anguish filled
my heart because although I am not an initiate Master still
shouldered my karma. This is more than I deserve.
Upon
my arrival in Sweden, I found the lifestyle so different
from that of China. Meat is commonly served as the main
course in meals but I have firmly adhered to my vegetarian
diet, hoping earnestly that Master will take compassion
on me and initiate me into the Quan Yin Method.
Please
save me, Supreme Master Ching Hai. I am a coward and always at a loss.
I have no wisdom and can never do anything right. I feel
miserable and weak; my karma is heavy. Please do not leave
me behind. You must take me Home. If I miss this opportunity
for initiation, I may really drown in the sea of misery.
Mother, I know that You are very busy, and countless sons
and daughters are waiting for You. I understand that I should
not trouble You with this letter for help. However, I beg
You, Mother: never, never, never to forget me, and never
to leave me behind.
Spiritual Correspondence