You Led Me Into The
Door Of Eternity

By Initiate Elizabeth, Canada
(Originally In English)

Dear Master,

A couple of months ago there was a "desert" in my soul. I was unable to keep my discipline. I meditated less and less and stopped attending group meditations.

Later, I miscarried a baby and found myself in hospital. After the operation, I developed high fever and went back to emergency status. Desperate, I began to pray to You: "Master, please save me. I beg Your forgiveness." Then, while waiting for the doctor I traveled the longest and the most beautiful journey in my life with You, Master.

Suddenly I found myself on the bottom of a huge well with muddy ground under my feet. Above my head I saw light and You, Master, waiting for me. Although I could not see You very clearly, I began to pray: "Master, help me, please". But I heard my voice disappearing in the tunnel of the well.

Above I saw a long rope that You were holding to help me to get out of the well. I jumped, but could not reach the end of the rope. Suddenly I got the message: "Repeat the Holy Names", but I still could not reach the rope.

Suddenly Your message came to me again, "Concentrate. Do not look with your earthly eyes, do not look around despite temptations, look straight into the light." I followed Master's instructions and my journey started.

Slowly, with difficulties I caught the rope and began to move forward. Some dark, vague human-like creatures were passing by. They were dancing, showing something to me, trying to occupy my attention. Some of them were wearing beautiful clothes and they offered beautiful things to me decorated with precious stones. Other human-like creatures offered to me a huge, beautiful tract of land and power over it. I knew I could not accept these gifts or else I would have to go back to the bottom of the well again. I had to carefully hold the end of the rope and follow my Master faithfully.

Next there was a brighter world - a lot of blue and grey colors. It became easier for me to move. I felt like I was flying. There were spirits of dead people all around. Among them was my father. He looked at me from a distance. I had a great temptation to go closer and talk to him, but I knew I had to follow my Master.

Next I saw angels or light-beings, who were helping me to go further. Slowly, it became brighter and there were more beautiful flowers - I saw petals of gigantic lotuses or other beautiful white flowers. Being attracted into the flower petals, I felt the scent of the flowers, which brought me relief. I felt Your presence, Master, but was unable to find Your face.

Suddenly I found myself in a tunnel again - this time golden red like a fire. Inside was Your hand like a white, gigantic petal of a lotus. I could hide inside Your hand like a child in its mother's womb. I felt very safe and loved. You were rocking me inside Your closed hands. I felt Your motherly love. You pulled me up so I could feel the warm rays of God's Light.

After a while I looked at the sky and saw beautiful heavenly fireworks - white, yellow, red. To my surprise, Master was giving a heavenly fashion show especially for me!

First Master wore a white, waving, silk-like robe and a veil around Her head. I saw Master's purity in Her eyes full of sweetness. She looked like a Goddess or fairy.

Master changed Her dresses with heavenly speed. Then She wore a light brown, silver gown with Her face half covered like a Hindu princess. After, in red and gold like a fire. Later, like a Chinese Empress, in dark blue with stars like a summer night sky. Master showed to me attributes of heavenly beauty and feminism. She is the most beautiful model I have ever seen. She embraced me with Her beautiful waving robes bringing relief and peace to my soul.

Soon the doctor came to see me. I understood how far Master took me with Her. The diagnosis was a big surprise - only throat infection! I knew Master had come to rescue me. She gave me another chance.

Thank You, Master, for your limitless love. You showed to me the way to God. It is the most precious gift I could ever receive.

Please, forgive me, my dear Master. I promise not to do that any more. And please Master help me to keep my promise. Thank You for everything.

Sincerely Yours,　Elizabeth